Monday, March 23, 2009

I am not ashamed.

In case I didn't mention it before, I have (self-diagnosed) social anxiety. I spent a lot of my life being embarrassed by normal things like buying toilet paper or talking to strangers or doing things that might possibly be construed as silly. And while I'm definitely not "cured", I've worked hard over the years to overcome the worst of my fears, to get rid of the nonsense that was getting in the way of the life I wanted to live.

It was hard at times (and is still hard at times) but I know that life is short and all we have at the end are memories of a life well lived. A life filled with friends and laughter and silly moments. A life filled with accomplishments, large and small.

twilight party

I think my one squinty eye says it all. It happens when I’m having so much fun that I forget to worry about keeping it from squinting. Karrie and I had such a great time yesterday. It was a good day, a silly day, a day to laugh at ourselves and to be ourselves without regret.

twilight party

I think this will be the last Twilight post for a long while because, believe it or not, I do have other things going on in my life. I've got the cleaning bug so you'll see studio photos soon. I'm even doing a little knitting! So, Twilighters and non-Twilighters alike, stay tuned...

3 comments:

  1. These pictures are totally cute!! :)

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  2. I think it's cool that you're geeking out over Twilight. I plan to do the same thing, as soon as I can get around to reading the books.

    Social anxiety is tough. I struggle with it sometimes still (I had it crazy bad when I was going through an awful depression and on anti-depressants for a year), and it's partly why I'm so hermity. Awesome that you're taking steps to enjoy your life despite this condition that can be crippling at times.

    Also, I totally have a squinty eye. Or rather, mine is really droopy. My left one, and it shows in almost every photo of me.

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  3. I love your pictures especially the blue one. They totally but a big cheesy grin on my face. Can't wait to see what you knit up!

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