I’m experiencing a lot of feelings today. So many different feelings that I’m having a hard time sorting them out.
First, I feel happy and relaxed. I had a wonderful trip filled with wonderful adventures. I’m also very happy to be home. I’ll do a proper vacation post once I can sort out some pictures.
Second, I feel conflicted. Conflicted because I have a new love. Conflicted because I want to spend every waking second with my new love. Conflicted because my new love is a fictional character in a very popular book that I promised myself I wouldn’t read. Yes, it’s true, I’ve succumbed to Twilight fever. There was a lot of downtime on my vacation and my friend Karrie lent me the first two books right before I left and, well, I finished the second book just last night. I’m completely and utterly hooked. I’m also completely and utterly in love with Edward. My heart is filled with unconditional and unrequited love…it hurts and yet it is the most delicious pain I’ve ever felt. How’s that for dramatic? I haven’t had the heart to tell my boyfriend yet. He’s going to make fun of me which will hurt my poor heart even more.
Third, I feel overwhelmed. I thought I’d come back and everything would be calm but I should have remembered that coming back from a vacation is never calm. My goals for this week include organizing the sewing room (which pretty much exploded the week before I left) and cleaning my bedroom (how on earth do I have so much stuff and why does it all end up in there?) I’d like to exercise every day and start (and hopefully finish) a quilt that I can use to write up a tutorial here. I also have to help my brother finish a costume tonight which means I get my beloved sewing machine back. I also have to finish a holiday gift that didn’t get done in time. Add to this my obsessive reading (I bought the third Twilight book last night so I wouldn’t have to be parted from my dear Edward for any amount of time) and I’ve got quite a full week. I’m excited to get started but I’m also overwhelmed.
Fourth, I feel sad. I miss my boyfriend terribly. He’s been in California since December 18 and won’t be back until January 6. Also, I miss my friends and don’t know if I’ll have time to see them this week (or if they’ll have time to see me). Also, I have a feeling that something bad is going to happen to Edward in the next book and I can already feel the heartache. Also, I’m back at work which is self explanatory.
Anyway, despite all these feelings, I’m mostly just happy to be back. I’ll have some pictures ready to show you later today.